So believe me when I say that I do not cry at movies. Like, ever.

But yesterday, it was my turn to sit there bawling my eyes out. Seriously, I was sobbing. Very pathetic.

I was watching this amateur video recording of a musical called Bare: a Pop Opera. The music was amazing and the story was so moving and I was just kind of sitting there going ohpleasedeargodmakeitstop. It made me cry so bad.

You know, I've never noticed this really because as I said before, I don't cry a lot, but crying is actually very emotionally cleansing. Makes you feel like a huge block of crap just lifted off your shoulders.

Anyway, now I feel totally pathetic so I'm going to go play a video game where I can kill something. Preferably in a very brutal and bloody way.

Here's a video with one of the songs from the musical (don't pay attention to the video cause it has absolutely nothing to do with the play, just the song, mmk?):

We had a dinner at my place and then we went to Viper Room. I had bought new shoes with very high heels (for me, anyway x'D) so my feet were killing me about 5 minutes into the evening. Remind me to bring a extra pair of flat shoes for next time.

I got home at around 4, I think, and pretty much everything hurt by then. And I had to wake up at like 10 the following morning to start cleaning. The cleaning itself didn't take very long, but doing the dishes by hand did. Guh.

I am sooo fucking tired. I just want to go to bed and sleep until Tuesday. Sadly I can't since I have to wake up fairly early tomorrow and finish the goddamned essay for litterature science class.

Guh, I say. Guh!

When I went on my computer today feeling like utter crap and being really moody, I saw that one of my subscriptions on YouTube had uploaded a really short, two second preview of wednesdays episode of As the World Turns (my soap). The clip was of my favorite couple Luke and Noah (who hasn't been on the show for like a month and I've been waiting and waiting for them to come on), and for some reason this made me ridiculously happy. I'm a silly person to have my spirits lifted like that because of a short two second hug. Seriously. I'm kind of pathetic.

Anyway, it made me happy so whatever.

I'm going to go now.

Toodles.

I just took a "who's your president" type quiz on abcnews.com where you had to choose between two quotes (one from Obama, one from McCain, but they didn't tell you who said what) depending one which one you most agreed with.

I got 11 out of 13 Obama quotes x'D Only two were from McCain, and both were on the U.S economy, which I don't know anything about, anyway.

How anyone could ever vote republican I'll never know.

Go Obama. Or something.

I swear I'm going to live in New York at some point in my life.

Otherwise I'll be sad.

Anyway, I was "sick" today. I wasn't really sick, I just woke up with a major headache and was scared that it'd turn into a migraine, so I decided to stay home to be on the safe side. I'm really not up for migraines right now, especially since they've cooled off a lot lately. Luckily I just had a normal headache for a few hours, then it went away ^^

I don't have much else to say... I'm boring, ain't I?

Although they played strange music. The downstairs dance floor played mostly slow R&B and the upstairs dance floor played strange techno.

But still :) Fun.

But guys who can't take no for an answer are a fucking pain. Crazy stalkers, man.

I am so tired. We were supposed to go out again tonight, to Huset (the House), but I just didn't have the fucking energy. I just wanted to lay on the couch and be a potato (you can't say that in English, can you?). Anyhow, that's what I did ^^ It was fun. Probably not as fun as going to Huset would have been, but still.

There is just no logic in it, and therefore it was impossible for me to respond with logic. Nothing works on them. They're so incredibly set in their ways. It's sad. And horrible.

We were having a convo about a video from Ellen Degeneres talk show, where she spoke about a poor, 15 year old gay kid who was killed by the guy he'd asked to be his valentine. It was horrible.

Here are some of the things he said;

"Really? Hmmm. Let's see:

You: Faggot or Faggot enabler. Military won't let you serve and if you get in, they find out, they give you a dishonorable discharge and nice boot print on your ass.

Me: Joined, served, finished as Captain. Kicked out 8 homos during my time, not before jailing 2 (Was so proud), got a few ribbons, a couple of certificates and a honorable discharge.

Exactly who is the disgrace here?"

"Try again cock gobbler. Larry was a sexual harasser. The valentine was the straw that broke the camel's back or in your terms: the oil that hit the anus. So kid got a gun and double tapped the fruit. One for the kill, one to make sure he didn't come back as a gay zombie."

"Gays deserve to be bashed. You brought it on yourself by choosing the easy, selfish path in life. And yes, you did fail with the opposite sex. If you automatically "assumed" you were gay without giving the opposite sex the benefit of the doubt, then yes, you rolled a lvl 1 Fairy Class life. Don't forget to put your talent points in interior design, stretched asshole +10%, and how to make shit smell like strawberries during ass sex."

"Yes, gay is the easy route. No responsibilities for the opposite sex. No children to be "accidentally" had (turd don't count). It's all a sexual utopia. Lust, desire, depravity, and perversion with none of the responsibility of a responsible heterosexual couple. Too easy. You know, I probably am hard on the gays. God made you this way because apparently, there is a Noob level in life and being Gay is like the easiest class to play."

"You want love? Love is for the opposite sex. There is no love between same gender. Only satisfaction of lustful desire and pain. Gays are losers with the opposite sex. Unable to handle the challenges of the opposite. That is why they are weak, corruptible, and spineless. No wonder they chose the easy route of being gay. "

"It's funny. Homosexuals say they were born that way. Pedophiles say they were born that way. Yet, between the two, there is no gene, merely a chemical imbalance. Yet both groups don't want to be cured, so in the end that made a choice to be gay. It is a shame, we simply cannot exile both groups or at least let the lions have at them. But then the lions might get aids or molested, and since I love animals, I have to banish both groups."

"Being a homosexual should be a crime. As it leads to more deviant and degenerate behavior that society has no use for, that includes homosexual pedophilia. There is no honor in being gay. Only dishonor to the family name and to our nation."

"There is no such thing as love between gays. Only lust and domination. It is nothing more than a perversion."

I seriously don't get how people can think like this. It really offended me, and I'm not even gay. He called me a "fag-enabler", whatever that means.

It makes me sad.

There's only about 1 1/2 months left til the 10-year anniversary of Matthew Shepard's death, too.

I can't believe we haven't gotten further than this in ten frikkin' years.

Christ.

Why?

Because I'm a movie buff, and I feel like I've seen a million movies from practically every genre known to man, and I thought it was time to go in a new direction.

Besides, watching cute boys who like to kiss each other isn't exactly a hardship, ya know. -insert dirty smirk here-

At least gay movies brings something new into the equation. The fact that it's gay automatically makes it different. Different problems, different storylines etc. And I felt that I wanted something different.

The title of this entry is also a title of a gay movie, by the way. It's like the gay version of American Pie. I didn't like it a lot; it had it's moments, but not my favorite.

So, lacking more interesting things to do, I thought I'd write a little about the movies I've been watching. I'm just like, why the hell not? It's my blog, so I can write whatever I want ^_____^

Here goes.

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Latter Days
A fairly decent movie. Not insanely good, but definitely all right. The characters are a bit shallow and stereotypical, but they work. The story is sweet; closeted gay mormon boy meets out&proud slutty boy and they fall in love. Basically. Of course there is more to it than that, but that's the gist of it, anyway. The acting is decent, but the guy playing the lead (mormon dude) is actually really good. He really brought the whole movie up a step. Fairly graphic sex scene, but nowhere near Queer as Folk standard. Overall, I liked it.

British coming out story. This one was actually pretty good. I thought it was depressing, but if you're into that sort of thing then the movie works. The acting is good, the writing is good, the story is good. Closeted gay teen falls for the school heart throb, who of course turns out to be a in-denial homosexual. They start an affair, but things get rough between them when the in-denial one becomes more and more paranoid that someone will find out. It's very sweet, very real, but with a depressing ending. Still, good movie.

Beautiful Thing
Another British movie (they seem quite good at this genre, actually). Two neighbors who both are fighting demons in their lives (for one, it's bullies in school, for the other, it's his abusive father) find comfort in each other when they end up sleeping in the same bed. It's very sweet, very touching, sort of like Get Real but with a happier ending. The acting isn't at it's best and sometime the story gets a bit wierd, but it somehow works, anyway.

Now this one, I really liked. Great acting, great story, great characters. Just great, basically. One seemingly heterosexual boy in his early twenties cope with the trouble at home by surfing with his best friend's older brother, who recently came into town. They get drunk one night and share a kiss. Hetero-boy freaks but can't resist the attraction he feels, and they end up as lovers. Things get complicated when hetero-boy's selfish, no-good sister starts suspecting what's going on and lays on some heavy guilt on him, which leads him breaking the relationship off. But there is, of course, a happy ending. I actually loved the ending in this; it wasn't very realistic, really, but it was heart-felt, sweet, and romantic. I very much liked this one.

This one was... strange, but funny. Awkward gay boy (who is an aspiring musical-writer, btw) goes to a club/bar and sees a hot, sexy go-go boy. They meet again on the subway and decide to go back to musical-boy's apartment for a onenightstand. Only, things get in their way and they go one a crazy trip around town trying to find some place to be alone so they can fuck, basically. It's very funny in a surrealistic way, I laughed a lot. Just for that, I've decided that I liked it.

Now, I didn't actually watch this movie because I couldn't find it anywhere, but I did see one scene on youtube that was good enough for me to mention Bent here. The movie is about this gay guy who lived in Germany during the holocaust, and was captured by the nazi's. Now, like I said I didn't actually watch the movie so I may be somewhat wrong about the plotline, but this is how I understood it anyway. This guy made some kind of deal with the nazi's and had them mark him as a Jew instead of a homosexual, because it was worse to be gay than Jewish. While he's at a concentration camp he meets and falls in love with this other guy, who, unlike him, proudly wears his pink triangle. Now, the scene that I watched which compelled me to include this movie here was the two of them, standing in the middle of a courtyard, unable to touch or even look at each other, and yet they manage to bring each other to orgasm. The scene is incredibly intense. Really well acted and written. I was just very impressed. Although I'm not entirely sure I actually want to watch the movie since I've come to understand that it has a sad ending, and that would just make me depressed. I shall see.

All Over the Guy
This one was... I don't know. I can't decide whether I liked it or not. It's about this guy and this girl, who meet and fall in love. They both have a gay best friend each, and decide to set them up with each other. So the two gay friends go on a blind date, which is a complete disaster. Only, they soon meet again and discover than even though they have absolutely nothing in common, they can still be really great friends, and perhaps something more. Only, one of them has commitment issues (this happens in like ALL gay movies; one is always more into it than the other, who always has commitment issues) and continuously pushes the other away. And yet, it ends happily and in a sweet way. I don't know how I feel about it, really. It's wierd, I'm usually pretty opinionated about movies, but this one is hard to call. Whatever.

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I'm now in the process of watching a few other movies (yes, I watch several different movies at the same time. Call me wierd). They are The Trip, Poster Boy, Eating Out (which sounds like a lesbo movie, but it's not), and the Edge of Seventeen. There are a few others I want to watch as well, I just haven't gotten around to it yet.

I don't know what genre I'll start watching once the gay thing is over with.

I seriously watch too many movies.

Toodles.